It's been almost 7 years since my divorce was finalized and that is when it started for me. Before the divorce, I had started going to the local fitness center and exercising my butt off so when my husband came home from Operation Iraqi Freedom, that he would be surprised by a whole new looking me. I was doing really good with my own Operation Surprise Justin, but then I tore my meniscus. I would still watch what I was eating and was being really good! Then, the news that the marriage was not lasting came, and I quit. I quit mentally and physically.
So, back to the present. I realized what I was doing to my body was basically making my lifespan shorter. I like life, I love people, and I needed to make some decisions to love myself.
These are the rules that I have made and am following to make it an easier transition:
- Forgive myself for my short comings in this weight loss journey. If I have a horrible day and eat too much, it does not mean that I need to give up, it just means that I need to do better in the future. If the scale is mean on my weigh in day, it doesn't mean I am a failure, it just means that the scale is lying! (Okay, truthfully, I know it isn't lying)
- Run! Now running comes with a lot of failures when you are as big as I am, but each day I put on my running shoes, it is getting me one step closer to running a mile. Running helps me burn calories faster and I enjoy that.
- Depend on my support system. I have a great support system at home, with my brothers, sisters, and parents, and also at work. I have talked about few "failures" with them and they are so supportive and they keep me going. I am so thankful that I have people who I can talk to that won't make me feel bad about where I am at right now, but help me look at the future of where I can be.
- Don't eat everything I get. I go out to eat at least once a week. I have learned that restaurants could care less about how much they give me and it is up to me to put half of the portion away. I have asked for a box before I am done eating because I know that I have the mentality to eat everything that was given to me. If I put half away, I have a normal portion and I am not tempted to eat what is in the box.
- Last, but not least, give myself rewards. When I get to goal one, I am going to get myself a facial. When I arrive at goal two, I am going on a weekend trip. When I arrive at goal three, I am getting a half day at the spa, and when I arrive at goal four, I am going somewhere I have never been before for an extended weekend trip.